Bad day continued....

So I decide to make the most of the day and go out with the kids for breakfast at this place called the lighthouse cafe right down the street.  I go there often and most people that work there know us.  We've gone since we moved to this street 2 years ago.  Well today I get told "while we love your business, the last time u ate here you left a disaster, food all over the floor, etc... We don't like you leaving mess". I remember appologizing years ago and trying to clean up a mess kalvin made.... He was about 2 then... And saying not to worry... They got it.  Well apparently their policy changed and instead they insult and embarrass their customers.  Well my daughter throws food on my floor daily.  I clean up after her daily.  When I choose to eat out, its to give me a break of having to clean up after her.  If I have to do it there too, why bother going out? Maybe pay me for my services since I thought part of working at a restaurant was sweeping floors and cleaning tables? It wasn't nearly as bad as this man claimed it was, or at least I didn't think so.  Needless to say I walked out and we ate at BK. 

Just when I was feeling really down tho... Kalvin says to Chloe "give me hug" and she did! They were in the stroller hugging. 

Well then we went to the library and a few stores. I'm so sick of hearing the OMG 2 lil ones and one on the way? Yes. Do u have a problem with that? Ugh.  Ok rant over....

Just one of those days...

Its just one of those days I feel the need to spill out my thoughts.  I dont want to make any facebook posts about my moods, cuz I know things could be worse but I am just in one of those funks today.

Its another Saturday where Greg is not home on a Saturday.  NOT because of work this time... he went crabbing with his uncle Mike.  I know he deserves fun things and all and this weekend is fathers day but OMG. I feel like I NEVER get a break.  I am so tired and miserable and he left at 3am this morning to get there.

Once he left, I could NOT get back to sleep for whatever reason.  Did you ever have the feeling someone was watching you when you tried to fall asleep? Hear every creak in the house?  Thats how it was last night. From 330 to about 5 I read a book on my kindle.  Finally I wanted to "try" to fall asleep but it was TOO quiet.  I looked for something on the kindle to watch from netflix but couldnt find anything I wanted to watch.  Finally I googled "Friends" in youtube, and watched the pilot.  2 times!  The first time I watched it I DID get to sleep, but guess what.  My daughter woke me up crying so I had to start over to fall asleep again.  by 6am she woke again.  I brought her to the room but couldnt fall asleep till 7, and slept till 8.

I have NO idea when Greg is coming home today, but the only thing I got was "before dark"!  umm its NOT winter so "before dark can be 8-9 pm?? WTF? So now I dont know what to do for dinner or anything else. Of course if he gets crabs, I can assume thats what HE is eating for dinner.... over Mikes tho???

IDK I am just not a happy camper today and this is one of those days I wish I had a car and valid license.  I know its not Gregs fault that I dont, its all me... but I still feel like I wish he could have set me up with things to do on days like these.  I go stir crazy 5 days a week alone with the kids, then cook dinner while he plays video games, clean the dishes, give the kids a bath and put Chloe to bed.  (Kal has a routine that involves us both).

My other thing I am depressed about is I really realize, at least in THIS area... I have NO friends. NONE. NOONE ever asks to do anything with me.  Is this my fault too?  I really dont know.  But I put up on FB yesterday that I was looking for something to do today and only one person commented but not to do anything... just to be a smartalec.

I am just sad, lonely and depressed today and I feel bad that I feel this way because I know there are other friends of mine going through worse things right now too and that doestn make me feel any better about feeling bad about this