i dont even know.... haha....

Potty Training.

Thats all. I have NO words for it.  Other than its the most frustrating stage I have dealt with with my son since he was born.  WHY is it so frustrating? WHY does he do so well for so long only to slip at the strangest times?  I must say that I get MORE frustrated when its a BM accident.... why? cuz its GROSS!  UGH.  

This morn, I am cooking the breakfast, and I made eggs, home fries and bacon for me and Kal.  Of course I was busy in the kitchen, and my hubby is at work, but that hasnt stopped my son BEFORE from saying something to me about needing to use the potty........  Instead, I look back, find him bottom naked, thinking he left wet pants in the bathroom, I go in, find the poop filled undies instead.  He has NOT done a BM in his underwear since probably DECEMBER.  UGH.  Just frustrated today!  

On another note, I walked out of the house to gain some composure from being angry about the accident, so I didnt blow up on Kal about it, and I find although it rained last night, its nice, sunny and warm currently. However, I see that more storms are planning on rolling in by noon... UGH again.  Maybe we can get out for a walk or something BEFORE that happens today.....

Finally, 36 weeks checkup this evening!!  Now since I had a lil scare on Friday and went to the doctors, he did my Strep B test already, which is one thing they were going to need to do tonight.... However I also have an ultrasound scheduled that is supposed to give me an estimation on how big lil Chloe is.  Now I have a regular check up too, but who knows if we will keep that, but I guess we will.... He can at least check my dilation and all of that, which I doubt there is any yet! (there wasnt anything going on as of Friday).

Ok,  I feel a lil better now, gonna see if we can spend some time outdoors before it gets icky.......

so tired......

I dont even have a witty title for today.

I dont have energy for anything.  So much for nesting.  I still feel symptoms of that cold lingering around even though I thought at first it was gone.  I am tired and I ache everywhere.  I swear this girl is using my lungs as her pillow for I can barely take a breath anymore!  I am 3 days away from 36 weeks, and as I get closer to the "full term" mark I just keep thinking... OK I am DONE! COME OUT!  lol......

I am soooooo not ready for her tho.  I barely have any clothes yet.  I have the bassinet set up and the swing just needs some batteries, and I guess the car seat is almost ready since she will just be using Kalvins old one.....

I would love to have a video monitor, and a breast pump, but those are 2 expensive things that are just not in the budget right now.  Kinda sad cuz 2 people I know that are expecting within the same week as me are having a shower, one of which is on her second child (4 years apart) same gender, but it seems I wont be getting one.

I am buying a new crib bedding set, but that might as well wait till she arrives.... since she will spend the first 2-3 months in our room in the bassinet more than likely afterall...... maybe when taxes come in I can at least get the video monitor... which also I guess can wait since she will live in our room in the beginning....

I need to make a hospital bag..... right now I want a nap.  Greg is working late.  should be leaving work in about 1/2 hour.... its pizza night.... fine by me cuz I have NO energy for cooking today!

Overwhelmed.

Feeling a bit overwhelmed lately.... laundry backed up, dishes dirty in the sink, Kalvins toys everywhere.......

I just do not have the energy to do any of it today.  And I am still worried about having this baby too early.  I cant wait till monday cuz its my 36 week appointment and much closer to full term, and if something happens after that I can feel more at ease.  They start the more evasive checkups on monday, so they will at least be checking week to week whether there is any tears or leaks, dilating and all of that jazz.  plus I will get that stinking strep b test over with, and they are doing an ultrasound for the baby's size.

Kalvin has been really hitting a nerve in me today too, and I just do not know why.  He ruined my chapstick and I am sick of telling him NOT to touch stuff like that.  His potty training is like a freaking see-saw, last week I think I changed his undies 1 time in the day the WHOLE week, a few times he had accidents at night (took away pull-ups as an experiment)  But this week I have had to change him several times each day, including twice today!

Idk... maybe if I felt better and wasnt so sleepy today would be a better day....

some things will NEVER change.....

Well, talking to Greg about last night HELPED ZERO/ZILCH NADA.

I love Greg and we get along and everything is fine with our marriage,  but SOME THINGS... SOME THINGS, he just NEVER EVER will see my side, and its just pointless because I WILL NEVER win the argument.  It really upsets me that he KNOWS it bothers me, but what is his excuse? "WE WEREN'T DOING ANYTHING"

The house was a mess, I was TRYING to clean but didnt feel well.  Not like John has never seen the house a mess before but STILL.  I didnt feel good, and just wanted a QUIET night. He was over Sunday night.  why again????  Greg DID invite him I found out... but WHY can't he JUST tell me he is going to?  WHY do I have to find out he is coming over AS there is a KNOCK at our door????

Seriously why 2 nights in a row?   And I NEVER know when he will show up.  would anyone ELSE find this annoying????? Seriously? Am I the only one that thinks its RUDE to NOT give your wife a HEADS UP you invited someone to the house?????????????????

Someone please take me away

I dont know where to start.

I dont know if its pregnancy hormones raging or WHAT.  But I am overly annoyed lately.  One specific reason.  I swear to God my BIL has been over here MORE OFTEN than NOT over here.  And he either tells Greg is he coming over and GREG does NOT tell me, or he just SHOWS THE F UP.

I'm sick with a cold, I'm 35 weeks pregnant and TIRED.   I DO NOT NEED RANDOM house GUESTS 5 days a week.

SOMEONE PLEASE just take me out of here before I kill someone.  When I first moved to be with Greg in Baltimore and for most of the first year and 1/2 of our marriage, we lived with John to help pay bills and eventually be able to have a house.  We did not get along AT ALL but I think its cuz he was ALWAYS around and interfering with my relationship with Greg.  Things have been sooooooo much better since we got our own place and he got his own, and he only showed up every few weeks, or once a week at most...... He was here yesterday because GREG invited him I think for dinner.  (I THINK)  I have NO IDEA why he is here TODAY again.  I am just tired of it all.  Last week he was around at least 4 days that week.

Does anyone ELSE see a problem with his constant bombardment of our home or am I being BITCHY about it??????

Nesting and other random thoughts...

So I think nesting is kicking in!  I just went though our fridge and scrubbed the entire thing inside and out... I havent done that in a LONG time.  A small wipe here or there, but I scubbed it down completely... lol.  also I had no idea we had some jars of things that had expired over a year ago??  EWW.  LOL.

Anyway. Can anyone tell me why my husband constantly screams at his video games like its life or death if he makes it though??

I had more in my head before I started this but my husbands screaming has lost my train of thought...... UGH.

All State can __________ !

Fill in that blank with any explicit phrase that come to your mind!!!!!!!!!!!

So I am back on a rant about All State.  I dont know how in detail I got in my very first post about this, but it turns out that Greg NEVER left Gieco, but when he was talking to an All State agent about HOME OWNERS insurance in JUNE, that he would go with their car insurance too, because they quoted slightly lower than Gieco.  Well, when Greg called Gieco to CANCEL, Gieco went just a little bit lower.  Low enough that Greg decided NOT to cancel!  So technically he had All State and Gieco for a week maybe.... He called All State back and said he decided NOT to leave Gieco and to cancel just the car insurance part.  The woman on the phone was kinda mad, he said, but said... well I will note that you cancelled, you might get a bill in the mail, but IGNORE IT.

SOOOOOOOOO.... even tho Greg should have done something after months and months of All State bills coming to us, he just said, oh its All State, I cancelled, she told me to disreguard it.  Well, I constantly ignore 800 numbers, so if they called, I wouldnt know.... haha... BUT when they told the MVA we havent paid and do not have coverage in NOVEMBER you would THINK the MVA would send us notification of our tags being revoked??? NOPE.  (now thats a whole new rant on the efficency of the damn DMV workers of this country)

Anyway, I am on a new rant now because we got a phonecall, and it actually left a voicemail, that there is an attempt to collect a debt and they are willing to settle on a partial payment.... well the company asking for the money is never mentioned, BUT I know it has to be All State, since thats the ONLY bill we are having problems with currently.

When Greg was at the MVA even THEY said we are not responsible to pay them ANYTHING, when Greg explained to them what happened.   Is fighting this WORTH the trouble though??????

UGH I am just so mad.  SOOOOOOOOOOOOO mad........